I went skinny dipping tonight. It was amazing. To be naked and scared, running towards the endless ocean for cover. It was so frightening and refreshing. I had to look at myself naked and watch the waves wash over every inch of me to comprehend that this was actually happening. The water was warm and inviting. I ran towards it like a small child. I splashed in the water in front of God. I felt unashamed. Unashamed of my breasts, my protruding tummy, my small butt. I felt unashamed. I was so vulnerable and exposed and so deep in the water and so scared! But I did it anyway. And I felt so free. The far away streetlights made the waves break in and amber hue, it made the water look so warm. Such a warm color. And knowing God saw me naked and that he wasn't ashamed either was incredible. I was a powerful goddess in that moment. I was brave and unstoppable. I felt so strong and accomplished. I did it. I'm doing this. It was all such an awe inspiring experience. Indescribable. So unbelievably freeing. To let go of social standards, modesty, the law, and just be. Everything about me and the situation was rebellious. It felt wrong but right. It felt like something I needed to do.
To just be.
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